Worst or Best week of the month...??

Last Saturday I gave my phone for repairs..since I broke it 'cause I couldn't control my anger one night.. This week I couldn't go to most of the classes might be bacause I didnt have a phone to wake me up in the morning or I'm just becoming a bit more lazy.. I feel bad about it and I hate myself or that...Why can't I jus leave my sleep for sometime and go to college..besides it's way more important than a little bit of sleep and a scolding from my sister..hehe...Well...that's basically the reason why I think it's the worst week of the month...and as for the best part...there nothing much to say, but I think Rishfa is letting go of her biggest fear. She thinks that I'm gonna leave her for her cousin Hathu..or I might just leave her 'cause she isnt that beautiful...I still dn't know why she thinks I would leave her..I keep telling her that if I want to leave her than I would have left her way before we started talking this year... I could have found someone here in Malaysia and left her without doing so much...OK...I think that's it for the best part too...and DAMN IT!! I slacking off too much..I still need to finish the reports and the MA assignment..and what the hell am I doin posting this...stupid me..oh well..atleast it was worth it..I didn't waste much time on this did I??...who cares I already posted this..HA HA!!...

Just in time

The past 2 months were the best two months here in Malaysia though what matters is not here in Malaysia. Its about a girl I kinda had a crush on for like over 2years now and 2 months ago I was finally man enough to tell her how I felt. You wont believe what happened when i told her that!! She didn't say that she likes me...but we started chatting more often. One day she asked me why I wanted to be with her and I said 'cause I love her. Then she asked why again and said that I didn't even know her, then I said 'cause I can't stop thinking about her and yeah I think about her day in day out all day long. Stupid right!! but who gives a shit its my life..hell yeah!!! okay back to the story after that I told her to tell me more about her..then she start telling me more and more about her...after a while she asked me when I started to like her and I told her since a few days after we started chatting, that when she told me that she likes me back....I was totally shocked cause I never thought a girl like her would like a guy like me.... I even asked her when she started liking me and she told me since the beginning of this year and you know what we haven't been in contact for about an year...most of the time I tried to tell her before but every time that I try shes always in a relationship, so I didn't open my mouth and moved on. Its was after coming to Malaysia that I had the guts to tell her how I felt. I was encourage to tell her because of one of her friends who happens to be my friend too. The friends' name is Naji. She told me that its better to tell now. So just crossed my finger and told her and now its like a dream come true. She actually likes me and maybe loves me. We are just waiting until her O'level exam is over and for me to go back for my break. DAMN I LOVE HER so much!!! she says shes not so beautiful but I've seen her and I can tell u shes the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. If any of you would want to help me please pray to god that we won't end up being seperated in anyway. Thank you in advance. Oh and by the way her name is Rishfa and shes my future gf. hehe

Advice time..part 1

1. Never love with all your heart, but fill your heart with all your love..if you know what I mean...
2. If u have bad hands be happy that you have good legs and if u have both bad hands and legs be happy that you have a good heart...or at least try to have a good heart 'cause you will need it...
3. love with sex is not love but lust...

STOP IT!!!

Since last week or so, my last gf has been kinda driving me NUTS!!! It might be because I still talk to her even though she was the one who dumped me. It's like every night she gets online and we start through a normal conversation as in a Hi, How are you? and stuff like that. But after talking for a while she will say "can I say something?" and I reply to her by saying "yeah". And then she would say that she loves me, which is something that pisses me off. I just wanna be your friend for crying out loud!!! I have this policy of being friends with my ex girl friends. Well the other girl friends are not like this one, they stay quiet even if they love me or not. But my last ex nooooooo...she has to day the word love every time we talk. The truth is I just can't stop talking to her. Shes one of my neighbour and after we got together I found out her parents knew my parents, though I never saw my parents talking to her parents. Now I'm going out of my mind!!! Why won't she forget everything thats happened? She is the one who broke up with me without even letting me explain anything to her. Everytime I think of getting back together with her, I knew I will be with her for only sex (something I haven't yet and hopefully would do it for a long time) and I won't love her the way I did before. I know some of the people might think that I'm an idoit or something like that for not having sex, well you know what? mind your own business!!!.. anyways I guess I got that off my chest.. hope you like this =p until next..cya

Difference between ringtones and alarms

Tonight I realized that I shouldn't use my favorite songs as my alarm and it's better to use it as a ring tone. You see when you are asleep even if your phone starts ringing, you can always reject the call. But when it comes to ALARMS it will keep on ringing on and on... every time that I hear the alarm go off, I literally jump off my bed!! Its the best way to ruin your day for sure. But what to do, if there wasn't an alarm I won't be at college in time. And maybe I might oversleep and end up not going to college. Wish that would happen.hehehe. BTW I have been using a song called Apologize as my alarm and guess what!! Now everytime I hear the song I'm scared to death..lol!!!.. So a word of advice to who ever is using or going to use his/her favorite song as an ALARM, DON"T YOU DARE DO THAT. Unless you really wanna hate the song:p~~~ SO BEWARE OF THE SCARY ALARM!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA....................oh and btw..ring tones are for enjoyment and alarms are for scaring the crap outta you

Fun in APIIT

Today I went to APIIT with Agnes and Michelle. It was soo fun. BTW Agnes happens to be a former stundet of APIIT. Agnes was actually planning to go and meet Vivian and Raymond for lunch and go to Time Square with me and Michelle, but something came up and we ended up staying at APIIT the whole day. At first me and Michelle were the only KDU students there and all of the APIIT students welcome us to the place, It was so cool. Every one there was so friendly and the lecturer that we met today was a really fun guy too. Damn I wish I was a student there too. But my life in Malaysia started in KDU so I did prefer staying there and KDU is closer to my condo so it's more convenient for me to go there. We did make a lot of friends, though I cant remember most of their names. Sorry guys, hope you don't mind telling me your names again.. I'm really sorry. I just have a bad memory when it comes to names sometimes. For me KDU is the opoosite of APIIT. most students in KDU are not so social I guess. I think I would have a lot more friends by now if I was in APIIT. No offense though. Sorry KDU. But I do hope I could go to APIIT again and soon. Thanks for the fun day.

Annoyed

Ever since the beginning of this semester I have been annoyed by this guy AZ in my class and he is also from Maldives. And the worst part is, he lives in the same condo as me. T_T. At first I thought I could take all the bullshit, but now i feel like just killing him. He started being annoying since the day he told me not to trust my friends from my first semester. How can I not trust them?? They all helped me in so many ways.. lot more than you can ever imagine. And how do you know that they are gonna betray me or anything?? You just met them and I have known them for over 4 months. The next thing I'm pissed at him for is when he saw me sitting with a Sudan girl I met this semester. He asked me why I was sitting with her? and that she wasn't that BEAUTIFUL!!! At that time I wanted to say to him WTF!!! DOES ALL MY FEMALE FRIENDS HAVE TO BE BEAUTIFUL?? FRIENDS ARE FRIEND WHETHER THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL OR NOT!! WHETHER THEY ARE DEAF OR BLIND!! FRIENDS ARE PEOPLE WHO WOULD BE THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU NEED THEM!! SO GO F*** YOURSELF. At least that's what I wanted to say, but unfortunately I'm not the kinda guy who would scold a person infront of everyone. BTW that Sudan girl, she beautiful to me. All my friends are, except AZ ofcourse. I have been taking his bullshit for over 5 weeks now and I think I can't control my anger anymore. Yesterday I almost kicked him between the legs . Today we went to college together cause we had the same class in the morning. When I got to college I went to class to find Ashton, but he wasn't there. When I went over to Ben to ask where Ashton was, AZ started asking me to leave cause Agnes wasn't talking to us. And at that time I told him to shut up!!, but I did it calmly. All day long I just wanted to kill the guy. If I was a serial killer he would be my first target for sure. Anyways... after CF class, we went to PDLS class and at the end of the class we were asked to form groups for some kinda activity that was coming up on October. We need 10 people in each team. As we were discussing, we came up with the people in our group and at first we were missing 2 people, but luckily my friend Ali didn't have a team so we welcomed him to the team. After getting all the contacts, we all went our separate ways and on the way out, AZ asked me to tell Ben (the team leader for it) to ditch Ali, cause he thinks that Agnes won't be joining us if Michelle can't. But to tell you the truth I would rather to ditch AZ. And I think it's better if agnes and Michelle doesn't join our group if he is around. After that I was lucky to have gotten rid of AZ by making up an excuse to go hang out with Agnes and Michelle. And thank god for that. He so full of SHIT!!!

First Ramadan away from home

I miss the everything about Ramadan in Maldives. Mom and dad will be busy in the kitchen. Me and my bros will be either watching Tv or going for a ride in the afternoon. Used to hang out with my friends. Makes the time fly by.
This year it's just me and my sis.
As you all might know, yesterday was the first day of Ramadan and you won't believe what happened. It was a normal day. Didn't really feel like Ramadan. Got a new hair style and my sis did it for me. Left home at 7:00pm cause my sis's friend(Nick) invited us to break fast with him, his bro and his bro's girlfriend. We had break fast for like an hour and then decided to go to a sky bar cause nick's bro was in town for vacation. So the 5 of us was enjoying ourselves in the bar and when we were giving our orders I asked for an espresso and guess what. They brought a huge glass with whip cream on it. At first I thought the sour taste was cause of the coffee, but after finishing my drink I looked at the ingredients to find out that I drank vodka. It was an honest mistake. So I didn't mind. What done was done. Nick also said to me. "First day of Ramadan and your drinking already" hehe. Even though I drank that I wasn't drunk so its ok I guess. No harm done.
As for today, I had to go to college as usual at 9am. So I woke at 8:15 or something. really easy cause we don't have to eat. Got to college for Mr.Alex class. The most boring class we have this semester. A few minutes after Mr.Alex started teaching, I started to fall asleep. But tried my best not to. Today was harder than yesterday. Felt hungry and sleepy, so as soon as I got back from college went to bed and woke up in time to go to 1U for shopping. Wanted to buy a T-shirt, but couldn't find anything I like. Anyways we bought the groceries and the necessary items and got back in time to cook. Finished cooking within 45 minutes. Too bad I couldn't eat much today. Was feeling very sleepy. And again it's time for me to go and eat. Haha.

wrongly accused

Well guess what happened when I was in Maldives. My parents suspected me of using drugs, because someone living in our area said so. Did you really think I would use that? The worst part about it is that my parents blame my friends for that. My friends have always been looking out for me and I know that they would keep me away from harm just like my parents. And one more thing, none of us is using drugs. So don't worry, I told you once before. I won't use it and never thought of using, but if you even suspect me of using drugs again. I will start using it for real. I know your worried about me, but please don't blame my friend for doing what I do. I'm old enough to make my own decisions.

Is it the same?

It's the first time away from my family and friends. And haven't been to another country in ages. Soon after coming here I had to start college and I was enjoying my life. But still couldn't help feel like I'm missing somethings here. I really did feel that I didn't fit in. But now I'm having fun with the friends I have made during the past 3 months. The worst thing about being here is that I missing all the fun back at home. And now I'm starting to hate my parents for that. The purpose of me coming here to study was to keep me away from my friends, all because my parents didn't like them. It's not fair right? My friends do look after me. Just like my parents. I do go out, but with my sis. It's not the same as before. I used to hang out with my friends still 4 in the morning, but here I'm back home before 11pm.Not the same at all.

This year (2008)

At the beginning I got my license and I was going to my job even though I'm almost late everyday. 2 other girls started working at the office so I was supposed to check whether they do their job. But when even I go to the office I had to do most of the things, so I stayed away from the office. Even though I was getting scolded by my dad almost everyday. After s few months I got my last girlfriend. we were together for about 2 months when I had to come to Malaysia for my Diploma. On May 28th I left Maldives and on the way I met a girl, we had a great chat in the flight. She was a sister of a friend of mine, who came with us here for a ceremony (Winner's Nite) held in Malaysia once every year. After I came here I didn't really think of sleeping. As soon as I got home I went out with my sister who has been studying here for the about 2 years now. 2 days later I went for the winner's nite and met the girl again. We had a great time and exchanged e-mails.
After a few days I got messaged my girlfriend. I could call her for about a week cause my previous phone got screwed up on the way here. I told my girlfriend about the girl and she went ballistic, and broke up. I know that I should tell the truth all the time, but I don't like lying to my girlfriends. After my girlfriend broke up the news broke out that I broke up with her because of a girl I met on the way to Malaysia. And there was no way that anyone would have found out about it if my ex didn't say so. That's the reason why I didn't take her back when she wanted to.
Few weeks after that I started chatting with girl I met on the plane (lets call her Amy to make it easier). I found out that Amy had a problem with her boyfriend and tried helping out. And a few days later found myself falling for her. And when I told her she also felt the same way, though she didn't admit it at 1st. The only problem was he had a boyfriend and I didn't really wanna be between them. But there came a point when I told her to break up with him cause she was telling me that her boyfriend is not good to her and all. The weird about it was, she was telling me all of it. But she is still with that guy. So I don't think that the guy is that bad. And I haven't spoke to her for a while. And also I have been having fun here in Malaysia for the past few days. Thanks to a great friend of mine.
Thank You Agnes.

Last year (2007)

2007 was the year the I got my first real girlfriend. We met during a season fair in December 2006. At first I didn't really like her, even though she was very beautiful and was the center of attention at that time. Guess I judged her by just looking at her. At that time one of my friends liked her, but she didn't like him back. So nothing did happen between them. I started liking her 2 months later and we used to hang out a lot. There were times when I wasn't sure that I should ask her to be my girlfriend, but for my surprise she turned down a guy to be my girlfriend. I never was the kinda guy to get a beautiful girl like. During my secondary school years I wasn't so lucky either. So I asked her about 3 days later and she accepted. Of course. We were together for 2 months until her best friend (who happens to be a girl in case your wondering) told her that I said that I wanna break up and without even asking me she believed her best friend. I tried talking to her for about a week and then I quit trying. Soon afterward I found another girlfriend, it didn't last much longer either. Because I wasn't so good with relationships I stayed single for the rest of the year. Oh BTW I started working for my dad in May and I didn't really like it. I was the only employee. But we made our office in another office and did meet another guy who was a great friend. While working I made friends with people of different ages, I guess I made a few enemies. But I don't really have a grudge against them.

Closer to the present (after school)

After finishing my school year I didn't much to do. After getting myy results I applied for a job and they did call me for the interview. After the interview they didn't call me back. I didn't really expect to get the job either. Because I didn't get the job my parents were kinda forcing me to do a short term course which I started soon after the job thingy.
While I was doing my course I wanted too join the census program held to find out the population of the country. There I met a few of my old friends and made a lot of new friends. That's when I started talking and having fun with complete strangers. I also met 2 girls who are now like my family. I was in love with one of them, but didn't tell her that until I lost her to another guy. An advise to guys "never wait without letting someone know how you feel about them." We are still friends though we don't hear from each other much now a days. After a month after that I finished my course. And wasted most of my time chatting and sleeping, but I did have fun with the friends that I have been making.

Past life -4 (personality change)

After joining secondary school things changed a lot. I met new friends and almost all of my friend in primary schools were in other schools. Anyways that's when I met my former best friend. At first we were enemies, but after we settled our differences we became best friends. we did have a lot of fun during the 3 years in high school and after it too. We got into trouble for doing something that we didn't do at all. Guess that's when I started to show my anger to others though i controlled almost all of the time. I never did get into any fights, but I fight with my bro when we were young. Though I'm not much of a violent guy anymore. After starting high school I started controlling my anger, but I still get angry when I'm sleepy. So be Afraid, be very afraid. hehe. But even if I do get angry sometime I just can show my anger, can't help controlling it. Anyways that's for the secondary school life.

Past life -3 First love

I Joined the cadet and enjoyed being in it for 2 years in that school. Joined the independence day dance on the second year, make friends and had a great time there too. But the most important thing I remember about the two years is my first love. The first time I saw her was on the way to school she was coming out of her house and at that time I knew I was in love. I know I know. Its not right to give your heart to a complete stranger. She was a stranger at that time, but after that day she was everywhere I went to literally. One day when i went to my cousin's house there she was and back then I was a really shy guy so I just close the door and went back home. After that i told my cousin about my feeling for the girl, which is something that I shouldn't have done because my secret was in two days time. My mother was very encouraging, cause the girl was a school prefect and very good at her studies and all, but the other in my family was making fun of me. At least that stopped all of that stopped when I started my secondary school studies. Cause me and the girl wasn't in the same school anymore, though I didn't really forget about her and still felt the same way about her at that time.

Past life -2 (Dreams Shattered)

I started knowing more about the outside world when I started my primary school. On the first year I joined the school band and it didn't last long. Second year I joined the Cub Scout, learned a lot and had fun. Was in it for 4 years. I was in the swimming team for 2 years and won 2 bronze and 1 silver medals in the first competition. Though I really didn't get a chance to compete in the second year. Me and my mother was really mad at the coach. He had a personal grudge against my father and didn't let me compete. I went for all the practices for an year and at the end of the competition I was told that I won't be competing in the competition. Some of them made fun of me when they saw me crying and they still don't know why I was crying. I didn't talk about it either. Soon after that I transferred to another school. But what awaited me was more disappointment. They didn't even allow me to join the swim team. Swimming was the only thing I was good at and the only thing I was allow to do at that time, cause my parents were very protective.

Past life -1

To tel you all the truth I life has changed a lot. In good ways and bad ways. When I was young nobody outside my family knew that I exists. I stayed at home most of the time and was kinda kept away from everyone else. Though it's not like my parents force me to stay at home, but back then I didn't like the outside world.

I have 2 big brothers, 1 Elder sister and 1 Younger sister.When I was 3 we went to Sri Lanka for the year end break and also celebrated my younger sister's 1st birthday there (had a great time there even though i don't remember much). When we went back to Maldives things were different. My grandfather was very sick and past away at the end of that year. I stil miss him. Even if I was really young, I still remember him like he was here with us yesterday. He was the best grandfather that anyone would ask for.